So I ended up going to lunch with my sponser after yesterday's 12 meeting. We went and got some barbeque and sat around and talked for an hour or so. It felt good. We didn't just talk about our recoverys and addiction but also about ourselves a little and the old traditional "sports". My sponser is a few years younger than me but close enough that he remembers a lot of the same players growing up that I remember. So we could talk about things from the same perspective. I enjoyed it. Just a good time to sit around and just talk.
We also ended up talking about some of the other individuals from our 12 step program. I'm still a little fixated on others and their recoveries. I can't completely not judge others. I know this is a character defect and wish it could go away. With time and work it will.
Martha's nephew and girlfriend were in town, so we invited them over for dinner and to watch the baseball and football game. We ended up picking up something and bringing it home, so we could watch the games. We had a good time visiting. The Ducks won big while the Phillies had a close game. I was getting a little excited during the games. It felt good to be excited watching the games. But I wasn't so detached that I couldn't participate in conversations with everyone. I don't believe I was being rude at all since I clearly told the nephew before they came over that I would be watching the games and they were important to me. All in all I thought it went well.
I'm really trying to figure out why I wrote that paragraph. Did something of any significance happen while they were here? Was I rude? Were my emotions in check or out of balance? I'll have to talk to Martha about it later.
At the end of the night, Martha and me did our readings to each other and shared. Nothing too significant was shared. Neither was too excited by their reading. But I did end up sharing my thoughts of what I had written earlier in the day. So all in all it was just some good time together
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