I've got conflict going on in my mind regarding having two different therapists. I don't believe it's wrong but I haven't told either that I'm seeing the other too. My thought is that it's my recovery. One therapist is concentrating more on my sex addiction while the other is concentrating on Kevin. Throw in my acupunturist and potentially I've got three people working on my mind and body. Four if you include me. I want to get better and if using a bunch of different people to help get me there is good, then I will use them.
My sex addiction therapist is a 'Priest'. Not literally. William White writes about two different people giving recovery treatment. The first is a 'Shaman' or individuals that are recovering themselves. They speak more heavily from experience. The second are 'Priests' or individuals who have a more formal education about addiction. My second therapist is a Shaman as is my acupuncturist.
I write about this because as an addict it is so easy to connect with another addict. It's as if you can immediately feel their pain. I can sense their energy. Whereas with a Priest, it's as if I'm a child again listening to a lecture in class. Granted it's an informal lecture, and there is interaction, but as the only student in class, all the questions are aimed at me. If I don't know the answer, the Priest typically doesn't give me the answer. The Shaman understands that the addict doesn't want to sit there all day and necessarily figure it out himself, so he will gently guide him in a direction. All the time asking how he feels about that direction. Does it feel good, right, comfortable?
In about half a hour I will be sitting with my Priest therapist. I plan on coming clean and telling her about my whole recovery plan. Including the other therapist, acupuncturist and thoughts about Alcohol & Drug Counselor program. We'll see how it goes from there.
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