...since I last checked in here. It was Thanksgiving last week. Martha and I went to Seattle to see her niece, nephews and some extended family of her niece and nephew. I had an okay time though nothing really all that special. It wasn't my family and there were a bunch of people that I didn't even know. More importantly for me, it just gave me some time away from constant recovery work or thinking about it. I did take my daily readings to do and did do them. But that was about it. Had a glass of champagne while a toast was being made and two other drinks. No desire to get drunk or drink heavily.
I've got a month left in this year that I wish to devote to continuing my work on my recovery. I will be starting back up on my 90 day Recovery workbook now that I've finished my First Step. I will also being starting a workbook on self-esteem. I need to find a positive feeling about myself again. I know it's there and waiting to come out. I really wish to just start doing some positive work on myself. The first step was depressing and energy sapping. I'd like some good time now.
I'm going to start making daily To Do lists for myself. I want to set goals, even if they are small, and start achieving something. It starts small and will build from there. Yes I feel good today and have felt good for awhile. I've had a slip or two in the past but no big full blown relapses. I am feeling more comfortable in my own skin and have a good understanding of what is going on and what I need to do (which is still a lot of stuff). But I also understand that it will not all happen overnight and is a process. It's one step at a time with each day building upon the day before.
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