...with my life lately. I feel as though I'm on the verge of a complete breakdown. I want to just run and hide. Then curl up in a ball and cry. It's been over a year and a half since I've had a job. I feel completely worthless and having trouble seeing anything positive in my life. I feel completely on edge. I took two anxiety pills last night and a sleeping pill. Slept half way decent but woke up at 5am and couldn't get back to sleep.
I talked to one of my brothers yesterday and said that I was going to be temporarily seperated from my wife. I am unable to deal with our relationship in any form of positive fashion lately. I see her and I don't want to communicate or talk with her. She seems very closed off to me. I just feel that we need a break from each other. We've been married for 14 years. We know each other very well and are very entrenched in our ways.
Not sure exactly what I'm going to do but am strongly feeling like heading over to the coast for a few days. Do I want to be alone? Not really. I honestly would love to snap my fingers and have a bunch of feel good people experiences around me. I would love to be in a new, exciting relationship with someone. But I'm not there yet. Someday I will be, just not today.
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