So it's now ...

...a few days since I talked to my wife. Have gone to a few SAA meetings and saw my therapist yesterday. Just trying to keep to my sobriety plan. Gonna head off to another SAA meeting today but wanted to do a little journalling before I headed off.

I'm feeling pretty good and positive about things. Yes, my wife is still feeling hurt. She's not happy about what I did. But she has visiting a therapist and is looking to set up an appointment with another one (that is more familiar with sexual addiction). She's also gone to a COSA meeting and will be going again next week. She came home from that meeting and wanted to get a book on how to deal with a sexual addict and how to get over the hurt. I ordered that book yesterday on Amazon and it should be showing up today. It makes me feel good that she has not just shut down emotionally and intellectually about this. No we're not talking a lot about it, but we are both still under the same roof and we are talking to each other. So that is positive. I do understand this will be a slow process and I have to allow her to process things in her mind on her time schedule. All I can do is concentrate on myself and keep my sexually sober one day at a time. I cannot focus on a year or years down the road. I must just think about today.

In talking with my therapist yesterday, I let her know that I disclosed to my wife. I read her what I read to my wife on Sunday morning. My therapist liked what I wrote. Thought it was very good. We then spent the rest of the time talking about my wife's reaction and what/if any aftermath there was. She thought everything went as good as it could possibly go. Of course she doesn't think there won't be more to come but she was also happy to see my wife looking for more information on sexual addiction.

We also talked a little about a program that Patrick Carnes has put together. Costs about $400 but is a daily program to help put your life back together. I don't really care for the cost, but am interested. I really think that something more intensive than what I'm doing now would be good for me. I think I'll chat with my wife and see what she thinks.