...last night where I was in some sort of bondage situation with two women. One of them was the dominant individual while myself and the other woman were tied up and in leather. While there really has been no bondage in my sexual history, it was very erotic and exciting. I got the feeling the dom was going to have me fuck the other woman. Before the actual fucking began, I woke up.
Why is it that you don't get to finish dreams? Lol. Seriously though, I don't know what the dream means. Maybe it's telling me how I can act out and not be responsible for my actions? If I'm not in charge, then how can I be responsible? Or maybe it's telling me that while I might be able to justify acting out, perhaps I need to look a little further and see that my addict put me in the situation initially with a dom.
My addict is everywhere in my life. My mornings. My evenings. My dreams. I have to realize my addict has a window into every part of my life. I need to remember that and remember there is another choice I can make. I don't have to listen to my addict and do what it wants. Yes, it will be difficult at times but it will allow me to grow in a positive way. I don't have to continue down negative paths. And I don't want to! It's time to make the positive choices and accept that they may occasionally be a little more difficult but end up with a much better result!
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