...formal disclosure date had been set. Apparently my therapist let my wife's therapist know that the date set up was not going to work. My wife sent me a quick text message about this yesterday and said they were trying to reschedule. I haven't heard anything about it from my therapist. And I'm a little irritated. Yes, I understand that things do change but I'm really wanting to get this disclosure done with my wife. Maybe my therapist has some things she wants me to change in it? Maybe her supervisor said it was not an appropriate time to do it? Maybe he honestly has a scheduling conflict? I don't know. Part of me really doesn't care. The addict in me wants to do what I want to do when I want to do it.
I told my wife last night that I was going to send off a text message to my therapist to get this disclosure set up. I haven't sent off the message yet. I've decided not to as that message would represent my addict trying to control the situation. Instead I am going to allow myself to sit and reflect upon the situation. Trying to just feel what I'm feeling and not act upon it. I have to admit that it is a little difficult.
In the meantime I just got home from the bookstore. Picked up two books on Addiction. The first is The Addictive Personality by Craig Nakken. The second book is Addictive Thinking by Abraham J. Twerski. Both appear to be about 150 pages long and a relatively easy read. I'm constantly wanting more information about addiction and how it works. I guess it also keeps me from delving further into my own shortcomings and step work. Maybe so, but I'm a firm believer in knowledge.
So I'm go spend about a hour reading one of the books and then get on with the rest of my day. Still have a meeting to go to tonight. Then I have an at-home sleep study that I'm doing to see if I have sleep apnea. Hope I get some positive results on that as my sleep is terrible.
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