....as I just felt very tired. Either my depression is just making me want to curl up and sleep or I'm feeling very anxious about my upcoming disclosure on Friday and just want to curl up and sleep. Either way, I am avoiding life. I am not facing life on life's terms. I am giving in to the easy way out. It's very frustrating. I don't know how to get myself motivated.
Let me take that statement back. I do know how to get myself motivated but refuse to do so. I need to set goals for myself and then break the goals down into workable pieces and do the work needed to get the pieces done. It sounds so easy when I type it but somewhere during the process I reach a point where I take a break and then cannot get started again. It's as if I feel that I've done enough work for the day, even though it's only been a hour's worth of work.
Today though, I've got a goal of getting a resume and cover letter finished and over to a company for a job opening. I think I could do a good job as it a job helping first time home buyers that come from financially stressed backgrounds. These people need help with budgeting, finances and credit. I found an enormous amount of joy and pride when I helped people buy their homes. When they got the keys to their homes and were crying tears of joy, it was very rewarding.
So I'm going to cut this post short here so I can get that work done.
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