...centered around the 8th step--"Made a list of all persons we had harmed and became willing to make amends to them all". With this step we begin to take responsiblity for the harm we inflicted on others when we acted on our character defects. We're also list those who have been harmed by our dishonesty, self-centered attitudes, or other behaviors that arose from our character defects.
While I'm nowhere near doing the 8th step, I know that I have harmed individuals with my character defects. It's hard to put my head around this step completely right now, as being impatient with/or critical of others seems a little crazy to deal with. Fuck, my middle name is impatient. I've been critical of others numerous, numerous times . Don't know if I could put a complete list together. But down the road I'll try.
Some big news about the meeting to report. I did finally admit that "I am a Sex Addict". It actually felt freeing. I then followed that up at the end of the meeting and getting a sponser. We briefly discussed our stories and desires. We'll be meeting next week with him disclosing his first step with me. We've also agreed that I would say the Serenity Prayer upon waking up and before going to sleep/bed. I've also agreed to read 2 pages a day out of the green book and the AA blue book. Lastly, I've agreed to place a call in the morning and one at night, to another SAA member, checking in with them. Does not have to be my sponser. I feel good about the agreements we made and look forward to making them happen. My call agreement has been completed today. I've done the reading in the Green book today and am going down to pick up the blue book shortly and then do my reading.
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