...Was a little shocked that I had a different dream the other. As I wrote before, most of my dreams revolve around me being out of control somehow. But this dream was definitely different as I found myself outside a house, knocking on the door, ringing the doorbell. But no one answered. As I backed up down the walkway, I saw a cellar door. It was actually a glass cellar door. So I knocked. Incredibly, I could see some eyes looking back at me, though the people were trying to stay hidden. Finally they opened the cellar door, but stayed down in the cellar. They appeared to be captives, even though there was nothing keeping them locked in the cellar. I asked them if they wanted to come out, but they looked scared and not sure of who I was at all. They spoke in a language I could not understand but they seemed to telling me to get them some help. I then woke up.
My feeling is that my subconscious is telling me that I want to escape this mental cage in my life. And I'm getting closer to the day that I do. Everything I do is affected by it. Even typing this post, I feel nervous in thinking about my wife finding this blog and things escalating with her before I'm ready for that to happen. I'm hiding books that I'm reading and working on. It's very stressful, deceitful, emotionally tiring and needs to stop. I feel like a prisoner in my own skin. AAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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