...I went to the Tuesday night 12 step meeting that I usually go to. Felt a little strange since my former sponser leads the group most of the time. But I have to let that go and accept the fact that I enjoy the format of this meeting, being smaller and having no timer. More importantly though to me was that a young individual came into the meeting late. He appeared very dissheveled as he sat down. Within five minutes he started to share. I was completed humbled when he said that he was at my first step last Friday and had been thinking about it non stop since. He found that he could relate to it very much and knew that he had a problem.
I have to admit that my ego feels good about this response from him as it shows me that I am on the right track. Without feedback (other than seemingly empty praise of courage to share) at these meetings I find it difficult to know if I'm on the right track. So to hear someone that I don't know actually tell me that my talk impacted him lets me know that I'm moving in the right direction. I spent a lot of time working on my first step and I honestly must say that it pleases me that it affected not only me. Yes it's good that I worked so hard on it but it does feel better that someone else reacted in a positive way to it.
I don't believe it's a character flaw to want to have your ego stroked occasionally. I really don't know but I do know that mine does need to be stroked occasionally and it helps me justify what I do. I really don't want to try to be judgmental and see what responses others got to their first steps but it does feel good to know that a share of that significance can be beneficial.
No comments:
Post a Comment