...and I'm feeling a little tired. I'm thinking it's from the anxiety pills I take occassionally to fall asleep. Since I have trouble sleeping through the night, I'm taking some of these pills to relax me. They work and put me to sleep and keep me asleep for awhile. It feels good. Yes, it's a form of zoning out or just numbing myself out. If I don't then, my mind just keeps going non-stop. Hey, here's a novel idea, why don't I quit drinking anything with caffiene and start exercising more? That would take a big stimulus out of my body and make be physically tired naturally. What a concept!
Seriously though, I do have too many caffienated drinks on a daily basis. I do have a desire to knock them out of my diet. I'm rationalizing not doing it yet because of the Christmas holidays and an upcoming trip. But I would like to knock them out of my diet by the end of January 2011. If I could do it sooner, that would even be better. Martha has suggested that I do the detoxing part while she's working. That way she will not have to deal with me being grouchy, grumpy, mean or me yelling at her. Can't say that I can disagree with that. But I'm not looking too forward to a few days of feeling absolutely crappy.
I've reached another plateau in my recovery. After doing my first step, I'm finding it difficult to resume any deep searching and journalling for my recovery. I want to take a break. I've worked hard so far and feel that I deserve a break. At the same time, I really would just love for all my recovery work to be done and then I could move on sanely with my life.
Today I've got to work some on my First Aid package. I would like to have it done and be able to bring it in to Thursday's meeting. I'd like to start carrying around my Recovery notebook to all of my recovery events. I could put my books in it as well as recovery items. I like the idea and it would help keep me present in my recovery.
I've also got a therapy session to go to as well as getting my butt outside and doing some exercise. As I said earlier, I'd really like to start stepping it up with the exercise but right now I will stick with the walks. One other thing I'd like to accomplish today is to contact Henry regarding his real investment opportunity.
I wasn't very excited by it. I believe he and his wife have a very optimistic belief in this property. I would like to sit down with Henry and tell him what I think but upon some reflection, I'm not sure that would be the right approach. It's his deal. He says he has been working some of these deals successfully, so I'll have to just let it go. I guess if he asks for help, then I would be open to talking further with him. But I will wait for him to ask me for my opinion. I do not need to take control or even attempt to insert my thoughts and beliefs into his world if they are not asked for.
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