....Panera's. Still sitting there waiting for some time to pass before I go get my hair cut. Had a great sandwich and did some online applying for jobs. Was a very productive lunch time. Now I want to do a little journalling.
There's quite a few people in here and the music is playing quietly. Yet it is a semi-noisy place. And somehow it feels very safe and peaceful to me. Just different people in the same place having lunch and their own private conversations.
Went for a walk, did some work on my 90 day focus workbook this morning. Was good. I'm trying to force myself to sit down and start working through that workbook as it asks many difficult questions of an addict. I also like that it focuses on the solution instead of the problem. I don't know what the solution is to my life but it is becoming clearer and clearer that I need to focus on being in the moment. Whether that moment is good, bad or indifferent, I need to be there. Otherwise I am focusing on the past or tripping on the future. Neither of those places are a better place to be than in the moment.
I've been reading the book 'The Power of Now' by Eckhart Tolle. I'm enjoying it quite a bit. Kinda funny that I tried reading it a few years ago, while in the midst of my addiction, and couldn't get very far through it. Ended up getting rid of the book. But now I'm back to it and seeing how my life can be much better by focusing on Now instead of some other time and space.
Spent a little time thinking about the Portland SAA's Intergroup. Really wondering what they wish to accomplish. It's been roughly 10 days since the meeting that I attended. Other than my flyer I don't know of anything that's been accomplished, discussed or even thought of. If I join the Intergroup, it should be a great opportunity for me to practice patience and acceptance of things I cannot control.
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